This past Friday, I went to a movie that just came out this weekend titled, "The Adjustment Bureau." I'll just start by saying that this may be a bit of a plot spoiler, so only read on only if you'd like. This movie was completely different than my expectations, and I throughly enjoyed it, so it comes highly recommended by Yours Truly. However, there's a deeper aspect of this movie that I'd like to ponder on if I may. In this film, there is a "bureau" of mystery men, a sort of league. Some people on Earth call them angels. They are here to make certain that we stick to the "Chairperson's" plan and that every move we make corresponds with the map that has been drawn out for us. I found the concept totally exciting. Throughout the movie, this special group of gentlemen have the ability to open any door on the street - a cafe door, a bookshop door, anything with a doorknob - and have it open to where ever they need it to take them. Without giving too much of the movie away, the lead characters are faced with a challenge in which these doors are involved. On a few occasions, they turn the knob only to be faced with a location that was not intended...
For the past little while, I hit a bit of a dark place. I had overwhelming feelings of inadequacy, loneliness, and confusion, brought on by various factors and events occurring in my life. I knew what would make me happy...yet I did not seek it out. I think it's safe to say that I'm not the only one that's experienced this. I'd become exceedingly sad and not understand why, and then think about those who have so much less than I and become upset with myself for feeling selfish. I mean, if the only thing I have to complain about is my back aching, or a challenging school assignment...then I need to count and re-count my blessings. And if you're like me, it takes a heck of a smack in the face to realize how much you have.
Today was my smack in the face. I was reminded that I have been given so much. Lately, I'd been cursing the darkness, unaware of the plan that had been mapped out for me by my Heavenly Father. Too often I'd feel like another door was being opened for me, only to find out that it didn't lead to where I had expected, and tumble down to pits of discouragement once again...discouraged because life was not going according to my plan. But it was going according to His. My ideas are different than those of the "Chairperson's" because I do not carry the diagram of my life, and only He can lead me to the proper doors.
I'm extremely grateful for the angels on Earth that are here to guide us. I'm thankful for friends who literally let me cry on their shoulder; for family who endures through my grumpy fits; for individuals who have no idea how much they affect my life; for my Heavenly Father who has blessed me with all these things to be grateful for, and been patient with my stubborn soul.
Here's to lighting a new candle...one that hopefully burns brighter and longer than any before.
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